An affair _re-touched_

Oh the pain you must feel
Everyday from this ordeal
I know its hard on you..
Like it is on me...
What else can we do?
With out each other, were lonely
I feel like im loosing my mind
Hold up, STOP! lets rewind...
It all started so long ago when it was just the two of us..
Two kids from two opposite side of the rainbow..
Attracted by each others inner glow..
A passion so hot..
It makes hell seem cold..
We had it all,
Love
A Future
Most of all each other...
I promised myself to you
And you promised yourself to me..
Its a bitch, where we are at..
Dont you agree?
One day you looked and told me you had to go..
To where?
You didnt know..
Just away..
But you promised to return one day...
After four long years.. that day is finally here..
But it comes with pain and tears...
Your not alone..
He lives in your home...
You claim i'm your primary lover..
But that doesnt get me over the fact..
That.. there is another
One day he will know..
And that day is probably not to far away..
What are we going to tell him?
What will we say..
I was in his shoes and he will feel like dirt.
Most of all hes gonna be hurt..
I wish we could be upfront and just tell him, how you feel..
Its ironic how i always have the girlfriend with the reoccuring old boyfriend.
Now it turns out im the old boyfriend..
Trying to make sure your home life doesnt end...
If we could run away you know i would..
If we could fly, that be good..
Soaring to high above the problems of others...
So we could just focus on one another...
But back in reality..
We have a big problem, that could end with some brutality..
The worse part is for all of this, i compromised my morality..
I seems like i never find love..
It finds me...
Now i just need to seriously ask myself if i can do this..
And if so how?
Ive been cheated on..
Lied to
And even left for other for another girl...
All i ever hear is ..
"I love you, your such a pearl.."
I hate this situation and i hate how i feel...
Its like you two are riding a bike..
And im a fucking third misplaced wheel!